Just in case anyone is wondering. I am normal. Just because I am striving to stay positive and hopeful does not mean that I am not experiencing the whole spectrum of emotions that goes along with a diagnosis of cancer.
I feel like today it has really started to dawn on me that this whole experience is just the beginning for me and that I have a long road ahead. That is unless the Lord has or is healing me and we are still praying for that!
I have spoken to several women lately that I know personally who have walked this path before me. Three of them had aggressive forms of breast cancer and are survivors! They all said although the road was tough, they knew that they were not walking the road alone. God used their cancer to bring them into sweeter fellowship with Him and their lives are not the same because of it.
I think that I understand a tiny bit more about how Jesus felt when he asked God to allow “this cup to pass from me” when he was facing the cross. I’ll be honest. I wish this were not happening in our lives. I am dreading it all. But it is happening so I am going to do my best to honor God with the way that I handle it…knowing “it” is allowed by His loving and faithful hand.
I am also feeling like I would rather have a mastectomy than a lumpectomy. Neither one is a iron clad guarantee that the cancer will not return but I just don’t want to take the chance. I do not know that it is up to me, though. I plan on speaking to the surgeon about it prior to surgery to see if he would be willing to do so.
My prayer requests at this time are…
~For the surgery on Monday. We are asking God to do what He has done before by giving Dr. Noveroske and everyone involved wisdom beyond their own and that NOTHING would be missed.
~That God would give my body the strength I need for the healing process.
~That we learn the lessons that God wants us to learn during this journey.
We praise Him for meeting each and every need that we have. He is faithful.
Psalm 30:2
O Lord, my God, I cried unto thee, and thou hast healed me.
We appreciate your prayers more than you will ever know!
Love,
Carmel
Love you mom, and we are praying for your surgery on Monday…ALL IS WELL stay encouraged
Matt & Kyana
Carmel – thanks for the updates. Just got around to reading the last two entries. We will be praying for you now and on Monday. “He Is More Than Wonderful” was beautiful. You are a blessing and the Lord will continue blessing you through all of this we know. We’re praying for you too Curt! Love you guys – Tom and Norma
Dear Carmel and Curt,
I just read all your updates, and KNOW ALREADY that you will do well because you have placed yourself fully in the hands of our loving Heavenly Father. I pray for your perfect peace as you anticipate your surgery, for wisdom beyond your surgeon’s knowledge and skill, for rapid and complete healing, and for the love of Christ to be with you through each and every step.
This is indeed a journey of a lifetime, and God will remain faithful to you as He walks beside you, loving you, teaching you, and giving you all you need to become as Christ. That is what this is all about, and God uses many ways to get us to His goal for us. God bless you as you go through each day, and may you have the courage and strength to always praise Him for His goodness and mercy to you, his precious daughter. May each day bring you closer to Him and more joy in your heart.
Love and prayers, Paula Heffelfinger, Trinity
Carmel & Curt,
We are praying for the surgery on Monday. May God’s peace and loving arms surround you both tomorrow.
In His love,
Joyce and Dan
Carmel and Curt my prayer’s are with you. Nancy