Hi Everyone. Back to hearing from Carmel.
I cannot express enough praise to our great God for how easily yesterday went for me. I feel tired from the anesthesia and sore from the surgery but it is so manageable. I actually feel quite well.
All of this is certainly due to our faithful God and His praying people. I/we cannot even begin to express to you our thankful and grateful hearts for that. It means the world to both of us and beyond the both of us to the rest of our family as well!
After my being so concerned about the possibility of switching to a mastectomy at the last minute (to be on the safe side) God confirmed and reminded me on Sunday that HE has been so faithful to me in every step of the way by using my Drs that I need to continue to trust HIM to do so. It was one of those “Be still and know that I am God” moments, Psalm 46:10. What a relief when we as His children decide to let Him do what he does best…lead and guide our lives out of pure love for us. All of that translated into a beautiful blanket of peace for descending on my heart both Sunday and yesterday, the day of surgery.
I have also begun to realize that there really is no “safe side” in this life or with cancer. We are continually faced with the tough stuff of life and one of the lessons to be learned as a Christian is putting our faith in our Savior to take us the rest of the way. Can we not trust our every day lives to the one who saved our souls??
I used the word “blanket” above because on Sunday evening I was given a lovely cream colored fleece blanket with my name stitched on it with some praying hands. It was given anonymously by some angels from our church to remind me that others are praying for me. Blessings on you my dear friends, whoever you are. I am enjoying wrapping myself in its warmth.
Please pray that this coming Tuesday we will actually hear good results from the pathology report and that the cancer has not spread anywhere else in my body.
Psalm 37:7a
“Rest in the Lord, and wait patiently for him.”
Love,
Carmel
Hi Carmel, I thought of you so often yesterday and said a prayer with each thought. I am so glad to hear that your surgery went well. God is great all the time even when life isn’t! Rest well today – Mariette
Dear Carmel,
I’m glad to hear the surgery went well. Sunday i commented on the difficulty of being at peace with a tough situation like that.
I had nodules on my vocal chords and haven’t been able to sing since Sept. and now that’s gone only to be replaced by an extreme acid reflux which has me in pain all the time. –And I still can’t sing. Don’t know when I’ll be able. Doctors arent really helping me. I’m pretty much adrift and worried. I think of your situation and know that it’s so hard for each of us to find the faith that’s surely there within each of us. Life is bound to test that faith. We just never think it will.
I get a ‘floating at the edge of the cliff but not falling’ feeling which kind of suspends all feeling but leaves you in a scary limbo. At these times I think about God and know I’m in the church I’m in and with the people I’m with because God put me there to get and give the knowledge that He’s always in control.
It’s interesting. I tell them at church that since I’m a musician I seem to have all these friends that are New Age and even Wicken (witches). They love me and trust me and know that I’m Christian. They tell me that the instinctively know that I won’t judge them. That I’ll accept them for who they are. I find this at once a good and a frustrating thing. If the subject is brought up to me, I always say what I believe but I don’t argue with them. They constantly talk about their weird, unGodly beliefs in groups while I’m there, never thinking that should or will say anything. These are wonderful people, for the most part, and they love me. I can’t help but feel that God means for me to be there. It seems when I make new friends I find they are similarly heathen. They speak a lot of gobbeldy gook that mixes Christ with other “spiritualities”. I get so frustrated I could scream. Then I think that God has trusted me in the position of loving them and being their friends.
Sorry to go on like this. When something like this happens to a friend like you I feel all of my beliefs and cercumstances all around me. It’s like we’re all in this big swirling ball of tension and storms. God and each other is who we have to rely on. You are in the eye of storm but you are hovering, as I do, in the limbo. Maybe your limbo is more peaceful than mine. That only makes me admire you more.
Please write more.——well it is a blog. Thanks for listening and being an inspiratiion. Judy Berg
Hello, again. So glad to be reminded that the Lord is not slack concerning his promise. He WILL take care of His children. As I’ve stated before, you are such an inspiration! Many people would be somewhere, in a fetal position, accepting this and giving up! Not you. I’m sure it helps to have such a warm and caring support system around you that, even when you can’t find the strength to pray for yourself, someone’s got you covered! So sorry for the lengthy entry; I missed a couple! Love you dearly!
Carmel,
I go to Wallen with Dee, and just wanted to let you know that you are an inspiration. I can’t even begin to imagine handling the diagnosis of cancer much less the treatment, but hearing your story and reading your commentary have definitely become weapons in my arsenal against the enemy who would have us discouraged to the point that we would abandon our faith. Thank God that he uses your story and others to build us up and prepare us for the difficult, seemingly impossible, situations in our lives. I will continue to pray for you throughout the coming weeks. Thank you for glorifying God through your pain and suffering.
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