A quick post tonight before I call it a day. I am bone tired and ready for Monday to come quickly. Today I had a 9:00am appointment for my yearly GYN appointment and while waiting for the Dr. to come in for the exam I layed down on the table because it was too exhausting to sit up and wait for her. Then I started to think of the long list in my mind of everything that my body has welcomed with so many prayers this year with the goal that my health will be restored and that cancer will be a thing of the past. I can’t explain it but I just felt the weight of a full year of treatments weighing down on me and wondered how much more I can take. I am so ready to be done with all of this. I could just feel the weight of it all and my body saying “enough already.”
All year long I have run to the Lord to climb His Lord’s lap with every hurt, fear and worry and have done my best to rest in Him. I am doing it again now. There have been times I have been able to rest comfortably and other times I have climbed off for awhile leaving the comfort and peace He provides to try to handle things on my own only to scurry back up. I hope that I am closer to learning how to just stay and accept the rest that only He can give.
Isaiah 40:31
But those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not faint.
I am ready to walk, run and soar!
Love,
Carmel
